I'm Melting

So I just want to preface this post by saying that I love my life, and I am not as unhappy and lonely as my last post would suggest... I just didn't get around to the second half where I talk about IRL adventures I had with my best friend or how great it was having my sister back in town for a few days... But trust me it happened.

Today, or rather tonight as it is getting late(10:45PM Really?, I want to talk about how I feel like I am melting both literally and metaphorically.

Let's start with the literal shall we?
So, my lovely computer is pushing 4 or so years(in tech-years that makes it practically archaic)and it's starting to show signs that it's ready for the great-junk-heap-in-the-sky, it's getting pretty slow, and buggy but most annoyingly of all is that it the fan is going. Which basically means that it will alternate between getting so hot it actually hurts to touch it, and whirring so loud you'd think I lived under a flight path. Which I guess given the alternative isn't so bad, but still. I talked to my dad, an expert in all things tech, and showed him how hot it was. He actually expressed genuine worry. He doesn't do that, ever... So not only is my room aproaching 30*, with the window open, but I have the ever impending fear that it is going to explode. (And I've had a computer explode before)

Metaphorically, I have my third of five exams tomorrow, on Human Osteology. I really like the subject, but I kinda have to Ace the exam if I want to pass the course, because the midterms killed me. I've been studying off and on since 10:00AM this morning, and I feel like my brain is going to melt out my ears or something... I'd like to think I've retained everything, but right now all I can think of are the horrible bone diseases I could have... and not *just* hypochondria, but like, diseases brought on by anaemia, of which I was borderline the last time I had bloodwork done. Which was at least three, maybe four years ago. So now I have horrible mental images of my possible Porotic Hypertosis and Cribia Orbitalia. Ok, maybe I am just being a hypochondriac... but WHAT IF?!


So there you have it, not my most eloquent post, but as a late night//last minute post it's pretty good. My laptop is on fire, snow is blowing on my shoulder through the open window, and my brain is mush.

In other words, "I'm melting"



"And I know it's been/Such a long time/Since we've just been friends/And not soldiers on/The front line of a war/That we were born into/But we've got to do this together/Don't leave me"